Thursday, 29 April 2010
Wednesday, 28 April 2010
After weeks of checking UCAS every day I finally had an email saying I needed to check it online as there was news for me. I click on the link and go to log in and of course the internet at work chose THAT MOMENT to break down...so I had to wait a whole hour for it to come back online lol! Luckily after the wait it was good news and I have a place WOO HOO!!
It's actually quite ironic really that someone like me, who even started a blog to moan about the crappy treatment I've had on the NHS, who also has a phobia about hospitals is going to be a nurse! If you can't beat em..join em I suppose. I know all about how horrific hospital can be and how much of an difference one person can make, I really hope that I can get over all my fears and anxieties and become a really great nurse. But wow....for the next 3 years I'm going to be a flippin student hehe! There is going to be one crazy learning curve! I'm trying to figure out somewhere to put a dedicated desk where I can keep all my uni stuff. We have a load of bookcases in the living room and I'm thinking if I put one of the bookcases in the loft there would be room for a little desk and some shelves. I can actually use the loft as I gave in and got a bloke in to fit the loft hatch which has been sitting on the living room floor for the last 6 months! Now we have a loft hatch with pull down ladder, I've now got to work on laying some floorboards hopefully without falling through the ceiling ..again hehe.
Friday, 16 April 2010
At my sons guitar lesson his teacher was bemoaning how he struggles to stay on track and not get distracted from the task at hand. It suddenly dawned on me that he probably gets this from me. I am chronically distracted...random things crop up in my head and I never hesitate to follow them. I'm thinking this may be the reason why I never seem to achieve very much, I'm mediocre at alot of things rather than being really good at any one thing. It's probably the reason I have about 5 massive boxes of fabric, boxes of ribbons, trimmings and sewing kit, all purchased with the best intentions of grand designs. In my shop I have unfinished hat projects, broken corsets I meant to repair and loads of little jobs that I really should have gotten around to by now. I have bits of stuff for DIY, bits of stationary lying around that I meant to do something with and the whole place is just a MESS! My head is just as bad, I'm a swirl of the good the bad and the ugly. I'm forever having amazing ideas and grand plans most of which never actually happen. The more I think about it the more I realise I'm like it with EVERYTHING! I got distracted 3 times just writing this post...good lord there is no hope for me....but there was cute kitties! I really think that this is problem I am going to have to seriously deal with if I get a place at Uni. I really need to manage my distra.....omg have you seen these SHOES from Irregular choice! They have LADYBIRDS on them *joy*
Wednesday, 14 April 2010
My interview at the university was yesterday and I'm really not sure how it went. I spent a few hours there as I wanted to get there really early. Last time I went to the open day it was about a month after we lost Bella and I HATED it, I didn't like the building, the people, the surroundings and I just couldn't picture myself there at all. This time it was lovely, the cafe had nice food at cheap prices. The library was airy and light with great facilities and loads of books that I would love to get stuck into! People were friendly and I got chatting with a few other applicants that were early birds too. We sat through a short presentation about the university and what to expect, right down to when the hospital placements would be, the first one is 6 weeks in eek! Then we went into little rooms for individual interviews with one nurse and one lecturer. There were 12 set questions they asked everyone. I didn't get a feel for how it was going at all, the interviewers were very blank and indifferent and I couldn't tell if I was saying things they liked or not. There was no chance to talk about things and explain all the preparation I've been doing. I was quite disappointed about this as I've been researching current nursing topics and reading nursing journals so I would have something to talk about. So now I have a big wait of a few weeks before I find out what I will be doing for the next three years, gawd it's nervewracking! :S
Saturday, 10 April 2010
Ok so I'm not a huge fan of religion in general but dammit the good lord has given this band the power to ROCK! Since October are my new favourite band :D I would post a video but Youtube has decided it's too good to share, meh! But here is a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=svvjYem63Bo They are so good that I got all excited like a teenager *squeeeee* the singer even has dreads *joy* There is something I find utterly adorable about god fearing guys. Luckily hubby is a catholic ..I dunno I find it sexy lol! I shouldn't be so shocked by how awesome Christian metal is, I'm a big fan of Evanesence and POD too, but this is new level of cool!
It's the Easter holidays, things are quiet in my house. My littlest daughter has gone to Wales for the holidays with her Dad and Grandparents who all live there. I was hoping for a week of doing cool stuff that we can usually do but DH has managed to slip a disk in his back again. So he's lying on the living room floor looking sorry for himself all day.
I'm in work and it's soooo busy here that I have nothing else to do but read random blogs. Peoples views never cease to surprise me, on one blog a lady was posing herself the question "what is your passion in life?" and she replied that her passion was her husband and that she dedicates her life to him..... I mean that's nice and all but I think dedicating yourself to one person and not having any other hobbies, interests or passions is sort of sad. Plus it must be pretty stressful for her hubby being her only hobby. Anyway on reading other many blogs religion is another popular topic particularly among wealthy Americans, I thought I would share some of my views with all you lovely people. I would like to point out that this is not simply copy pasted from another blog and just edited..it's all original...really.
- two of the most important things are to know The Flying Spaghetti Monster and trust him implicitly. Trusting a Flying Spaghetti Monster is hard sometimes, but who else is there to trust? He's the ONLY one who's proven himself to be faithful over and over again. In fact, he's the only absolute truth there is in this life! Why wouldn't we trust him? I tried to find a local cafe that would serve his Holy Pasta dish but none could be found!
So I grabbed my bible and went to commune with my Lord. I confessed my lack of diligence to the FSM and told him that I didn't feel right about asking for anything in particular. Instead I said, "Lord I just want you to know that I adore you and I've taken advantage of you and your love for me. I've thrown quick prayers up to you out of duty rather than sweet communion. I've failed you in so many ways." I then confessed that while I had deep conviction about this and desperately wanted to get back on track, I was afraid I didn't feel a lot of gumption and I would need his help. He reminded me that he will bless my life as I seek him, and I know that's true. I've witnessed that many times.
I opened up my FSM bible and continued to read (where I've been reading in the mornings). I had already read Chapter 3, but I felt FSM was telling me to read it again. So I did. The verses that jumped out at me right away were these...
"Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth. For ye are dead, and your life is hid with the Flying Spagetti Monster. Whenthe Flying Spagetti Monster, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory."
So, once again, FSM showed me that my priorities were mixed up. I was not putting him first. HE needs to be my peace. HE needs to be my quiet. HE needs to be my joy. HE needs to be my satisfaction, and HE needs to be my inspiration. FSM needs to be my everything... and THEN I will be right where he wants me... in his perfect will.
"Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth." FSM Bible. 3:2
"and lo, The Flying Spaghetti Monster loves all the little children that cometh unto him. Do not be afraid, he taketh them in FSM's ever loving arms to a better place (and plus he needs to get his meatballs from somewhere)" FSM Bible Vrs 3. Chap.23
Monday, 5 April 2010
So it's Easter and we had to go over to the mother in laws for lunch, we had neither of the kids with us as one was over a friends house and the other with her Dad in Wales. No problem I though, this should be a nice lunch bla bla bla. DH has managed to put his back out again and was bemoaning our bad luck. It's typical as he's been told there is no more work as of a month from now and there is a hopeful permanent job on the horizon but if his disk goes again it's not going to look good going for a job interview in that sort of state. He never ever talks about Bella and I was shocked when he brought it up and said how unlucky we were. His mother decided instead of offering a little sympathy to tell us that there were worse things that could happen and went on to tells us how terrible it was when Dave left his last wife and turned up on their doorstep and the car broke down and her mother got kicked out of the care home when she was on holiday. I nearly choked on my dinner trying not say anything. I bit my tongue trying not to burst into tears and make a huge fuss.....worse things could happen? Our kid died...she fucking died..I honestly can't think of much worse than that. She does not seem to grasp this as a concept that we might be upset about and how much it has affected us. Like the time she said that it was ok for me to cry as it was "like a bereavement" LIKE? FFS! I honest to god could quite happily strangle her right now. People can be so damn insensitive. I'm still feeling all upset and sick almost with anger. How can she think what we went through was just nothing?
I'm going to prescribe myself hours of failblog and lolcats to get over this one *sigh*
Sunday, 4 April 2010
Went to my third two hour roller derby practice yesterday, can't believe how much I've improved! I can skate crossovers and I can actually stop without crashing into a wall. This was my first practice with my new skates and holy hell they are fast. Took me the first hour to get used to them but man they are awesome. I'm coveting one of the shirts with my derby name on the back, my derby name is Kat Astrofee as in catastrophe hehe! I think you have to make the team to be able to wear one so I got some hard work ahead to get one. One of the trainers said he's impressed with how much better I've got which has given me a boost..... Holy crap I've found something I might actually be good at. I'm wondering how long it takes to actually get on the team and looking at how damn good the team members are it might be a while.
Check out this awesome song- Roller Derby Saved my Soul ....and yes it has indeed!