Tuesday, 21 December 2010

The Date Is Set

I'm still hanging on in there in work, although I am so tired and really wish I could knock it on the head already. But still there are only 5 more shifts to go, and it means I don't have to go back until next October hopefully so should be worth it. The hospital is very busy at the moment as you can imagine with swine flu and broken limbs from people falling in the snow. I'm feeling very glad that I chose to have my flu vaccine! As it's so busy we are having patients from all over the place as they are fitting them in wherever they can. Last shift we even had a gyne patient, 6 weeks pregnant in with severe morning sickness. She was very thin anyways and probably didn't eat very much at the best of times and she had ketones in her urine which is not a good sign. I was with her when they examined her and could clearly see the stretch marks from a previous pregnancy, she was really anxious and I saw her looking at me and looking away. I had a suspicion and read back a little bit in her notes and she had had a stillbirth 3 years before, her first baby. I felt so so bad for being so obviously pregnant and being the one looking after her, I know all too well how harsh it is being around heavily pregnant people. I chatted with her a little later on and found out that the current baby is as a result or their first round of IVF and she asked me about my baby, the usual chit chat. I so wanted to say how sorry I was for her loss and that I had lost a baby too and that I understood how anxious she was, but I just couldn't figure a way to bring it up. Two of the other nurses on my ward have suffered losses too, one lost 2 at 6 months due to an incompetent cervix and another lost a baby to anencephaly. I never would have known about that but of course people ask why I am still having scans and stuff, it's amazing how many people have lost babies and how little it is talked about unless the topic crops up.
In other news, I had my last scan and baby is looking happy and healthy at the moment :D The consultant was like "so when do you want to have this baby?" and I said as soon as it is safe to! So I am booked in for induction at 38 weeks...10th January, which is just 3 weeks away..omg! I'm happy but nervous and pretty much counting down the hours now!!! Just gotta make 3 more weeks *deep breath*

Thursday, 16 December 2010

It's just a cold lol!

So after having the whole day panicking about the whole auto immune illness coming back I started sneezing and sniffling, it's just a cold, *whew* never has anyone been so pleased to get a cold :D I still feel like crap though and spent most of today wishing I was in bed with a nice hot honey and lemon but ended up having to drag myself out of bed to get DD to school then watch the school play..then once home get back on the bus to the school in the afternoon in a snow blizzard, walk for half an hour in said snow blizzard, watch dance club performance then wait for a taxi for 20 minutes outside in subzero temperatures. None of this would have been a problem if I'd have had a car today but typically at the last minute did we find out OH needed to take it to work (OH car shares). I called in sick to work today but honestly I think I would have been better going in, at least it is warm and dry there, meh!

Wednesday, 15 December 2010

A Bad Day

Well after feeling so good for so long and getting through the nightshifts unscathed, I woke up today feeling pretty awful. By the time I got to work I was feeling even worse and as soon as I got through the door, people were like "are you ok, you don't look so good". It's the same old, weird trippy feeling, high heart rate, weird visual stuff going, muscles feel all weak and horrible. The nice thing about working at the hospital is that the maternity ward is right there so I went straight over to get checked out. It was kind of hard trying to explain over the buzzer why I was there as I was sobbing so much by the time I got there, plus I have managed to lose my green maternity notes and this is the first time I have ever gone to work without them, typical!!! I was hooked up to the monitor and everything with the baby seems fine, she had been worryingly quiet this morning but woke straight up and starting bouncing round like crazy once I was hooked up..I was sooo relieved. I spoke to the Dr and stuff and they took some blood, but they said everything looks fine and that I was fine to go home. I can't help but worry though, it's never been a good thing when I feel like this. I'm also thinking that maybe I should just stop working now and just rest these last few weeks, but that means that I will have worked all this time for totally nothing and I'll fail the placement which will royally suck after all this hard work! I'll have to do the whole thing again from scratch starting next July, instead of going back into uni next October *sigh*.
Anyway I went home about as miserable as can be but I got home to find a package for me, with the most adorable knitted pixie hat in it. Thank you so much Jeanette, it really was lovely to come home and find something so sweet, I really appreciate it so much, it was like getting a hug in the post xxx I'm cuddled up on the sofa now with my feet up and a cup of tea and feeling a bit better :)

Tuesday, 14 December 2010

Awkward Pregnancy Photos

I've been meaning to finally take some photo's of me pregnant for a while now, but I keep putting it off...just in case, last time we took loads of photos and it was so not fun looking back at them all. But anyway...
I just came across this post and at first I was like awww but all pregnancy photo's are nice in their own way...then I was like ok I give these are too funny!! Especially this one lol!!

The Healing Power Of Cigarettes!

I'm totally tired after 3 12.5 hour nightshifts, but they were actually not as bad a day shift..I actually got to sit down for a while! Mostly all the patients are lovely, so many are being so brave even though they are going through so much. However not all of them are pleasant..this weekend we had a young guy, maybe 25, 6ft 4, really fit and healthy other than a broken leg in plaster. Our ward is not really meant for this type of patient but there was no where else for him to go. He kept us busy the whole night complaining about everything and anything, his phone kept going off keeping all the other patients awake and we were fetching him bottles and bedpans as he couldn't walk. Then he started complaining that no one was taking him in a wheelchair out for a cigarette and I explained that we didn't have any and the staff were not able to take him off the ward for that purpose. Then Lo and Behold up he gets grabs his crutches and speeds off the ward, down 2 floors and and all the way out of the hospital just to have a cigarette...a miraculous recovery! Later in the morning, I was already running late home as it was so busy with poorly people, I had my coat on and was just grabbing my handbag when he spots me and cries..."nurse, nurse help me!" so I drop everything and rush over to him. He decides he needs a bottle to go to toilet again, so I take off my coat and trudge around sorting it out. So there I am..clearly 8 months pregnant, 13 hours into a shift which I'm not even getting paid for, fucking exhausted, running around after someone who was perfectly capable of getting to the loo himself and wouldn't even say thank you. GRRRRRRR! I was so so pissed off with this guy!! Luckily when I got back in for the next shift he'd tried the same trick the day staff and they had very firmly told him that if he was capable of going all the way outside for a cigarette then he was more than capable of getting across the hall to the toilet.
We also had another patient having a total freak out at one of the poor nurses over the fact we did not have full scale catering in the middle of the night, he'd missed the evening meal as he was in theatre, she'd offered him tea and toast and a sandwich but apparently this was not to his taste, he insisted on a full hot cooked dinner at 1am. He started screaming at his nurse who was preparing urgent pain relief medication for a cancer patient that he was once the boss of (a well known TV programme) and was going to expose us for this dreadful state of affairs.....omg nurse hold the phone, stop worrying about the pain relief for the cancer patients and get in the kitchen and cook this VIP a dinner! What a twat! She didn't say a word back either just took the abuse and apologised until he finally stormed back to his bed. I see that I am going to have to grow a very thick skin if I am to do this job, the poor nurses are working in possibly the most frustrating environment I have ever been in.

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Cherry On Top

YEY! I got one of those bloggy award thingies, I never win anything, so this is coool, thank you very much Sadkitty

The rules of this award are:

1. Link back to the person who gave it to you
2. Pass it on to five (or more) other blogs
3. Leave them a comment telling them about the award

Here are my nominations for super talented bloggers:-

I'm currently busy with a project to scan all my childhood photographs, and any of the kids photo's that pre-date digital. I've always been paranoid that the house will burn down or flood or something weird will happen and I will loose all my memories. I've also always kept select pictures the kids have done all the cards they have made for me and I've scanned those too. I'm storing them all online in my google Picasa account so they will be safe come hell or high water...hopefully!

I am also busy being irritated by people not checking things out before forwarding them on or posting them all over Facebook. First we had a so called campaign to "help" the NSPCC by changing your facebook picture to a cartoon character...errr exactly HOW is that going to help anyone, it's a hoax. Then everyone freaking out as it's suddenly a pedophile campaign which of course is a hoax too. I've also been "helpfully" forwarded emails about various scams and even one about calling 112 instead of 999 in an emergency if you have no phone signal, which of course is not the case. It drives me mad that people don't check anything out before forwarding it on..I've never come across one of these stupid posts that is not a hoax. FFS... learn to use Google people!!!

Thursday, 2 December 2010

My New Favourite Christmas Song

You know what, despite being a serious athiest, I really do love Christmas! My mum was never religious so it's always been about family and friends, good food, good company and of course lots of gifts. I adore the decorations, the lights, the bad TV, the lovely atmosphere, the cooking and most of all I love how excited the kids get. Last year Christmas really sucked though, I can't remember much about it really apart from concentrating very hard on having lots to do, I cooked for 8 on Christmas day, just so I wouldn't have any time to think about missing babies. This year I'm hoping to relax and try and enjoy it a bit more.

I just found this song by the wonderful Tim Minchin, who is in Birmingham next week and I am very very upset about not being able to go see due to lack of cash and working *sob* This is my new found favourite Christmas song despite it making me cry for at least 10 minutes after listening to it